"I Know I Have Changed": Encounters with
Zen in Japan
By Neal Burdick '72
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Practicing zazen meditation at the International
Zendo in Kyoto are, from left, Marcus Perman, Nicole Gagnon, Bethany
Taylor and Courtney Williams. The four students and their mentor,
Visiting Assistant Professor of Philosophy Erin McCarthy, spent
five hours a day in meditation while staying at the monastery. [Credit:
Erin McCarthy] |
"You know, I think I did learn something from Zen and early-morning
meditation. I learned that things need to be appreciated while they
are there, while we are living in the moment. A moment can never be
recreated."
That's Nicole Gagnon '02, writing a letter on the plane on her way
home from Japan in June. Gagnon, of Buxton, Me., had spent three weeks
there, studying Zen Buddhism with Visiting Assistant Professor of Philosophy
Erin A. McCarthy and three fellow students: Marcus Perman '03, Washington,
Me.; Bethany Taylor '04, Hopkinton, N.H.; and Courtney Williams '04,
Bristol, Vt. The group was assisted by a Freeman Student-Faculty Fellowship
from ASIANetwork, a consortium of over 150 North American colleges striving
to strengthen the role of Asian studies within the liberal arts to help
prepare a new generation of undergraduates for a world in which Asian
societies will play more and more prominent roles.
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At Kokusia Zendo after the morning
work session: from left, Courtney Williams, Marcus Perman, Proshi
("head monk") Hozumi, Visiting Assistant Professor of
Philosophy Erin McCarthy, Bethany Taylor and Nicole Gagnon. [Credit:
Erin McCarthy] |
The purpose of the non-credit venture was to explore several facets
of Zen: nature, practice, methods of teaching and the role of women.
The Laurentian quintet met with Zen masters and scholars and visited
Zen temples, museums and teahouses, as well as one of the two Japanese
institutions where St. Lawrence has programs of study, Nanzan University.
At the International Zen Monastery, outside Kyoto, they followed the
daily routine of Kokusai Zendo, rising at 5 a.m., practicing zazen meditation
three times a day for a total of five hours, and engaging in manual
labor for most of each morning.
The quote above is excerpted from the journal Nicole Gagnon kept during
her time in Japan, as part of a group journal the students composed.
She went on to say, "I'm not sure when this realization [that a
moment can never be recreated] really sank in, or why, or how. I guess
it was gradually, but I have noticed that even now it has changed the
way I understand some of my relationships. I'm sure that, as we've learned
in studying Zen, this realization isn't complete and probably never
will be."
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Nagoya Castle, where
the group spent its first day in Japan. [Credit: Courtney Williams] |
The other students also recorded their impressions in journals:
*"Travelling to Koya-san was an amazing opportunity. From the
moment we arrived, traveling up the steep slopes on a cable car, I was
sure I would return. The mountain and its temples are beautiful, but
more than that there is a special feeling to the place that is indescribable.
I know I have changed." --Marcus Perman
*"The part of my life that I love the most, that my being is centered
around, is the mountain camp where I am a counselor in the summer. That
is why the pine smell of Mt. Koya and the picture of a child learning
the way from one who walked the same path mean so much to me. It is
through such familiarity that all of Zen becomes clearer. I'm not saying
at all that I 'get' Zen inside and out, but at least I have found the
right language to learn it." --Bethany Taylor
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A Shinto purification
ritual. [Credit: Marcus Perman] |
*"To work in the garden, see the flowers, rake the moss and really
be the flower, the leaf, my own breath during zazen was a very subtle
thing, not at all mystical, which is what I was expecting. If I wasn't
paying attention, I might just have missed it."
--Courtney Williams
The students were obligated to produce a tripartite end product of
their sojourn in Japan: the group journal; and individual papers that
will be compiled into a series of articles for submission to the Wittenberg
University East Asian Studies Journa.
The Freeman Fellowship encourages the faculty member who mentors the
students to stay on and pursue research after the students depart, and
that's what Professor McCarthy did. She explains, "I was a visiting
research fellow at the Nanzan Institute for Religion and Culture at
Nanzan University pursuing research on Watsuji Tetsuro, the modern Japanese
philosopher I study. I also gave a paper at the Asian Studies in Japan
Conference held in Tokyo." She says that that experience, coupled
with those she had with the students, "will undoubtedly enrich
my classes this year." Clearly, it was not just the students who
learned from their adventures.
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Courtney Williams tutors
a group of Japanese students in English in Kyoto. [credit: Nicole
Gagnon] |